Wow I managed to fall so far behind in this daily blog-along. A few days in I got sick, like had to go to the doctor, had a temp, needed antibiotics sick. Then an intestinal bug hit my house.
All that pales in comparison to the devastating phone call at 8 am yesterday morning. My 24 yr old nephew committed suicide. I can not wrap my head around this situation at all. I was close to my nephew, he and my son who were the same age were cousins, brothers and best buds. The entire family [clan] is a mess. No one can make any sense of it. My heart breaks for my sister-in-law, his mom, and for his dad, and his siblings, really my heart just breaks.
I'm sad, confused and mad all at the same time. Things like this aren't supposed to happen. Losing someone you love is hard, but to lose someone with no rhyme or reason, with no answers, no understanding of why, how do you move forward? This whole situation just sucks. I'm at a complete loss for all those I love.
Sorry for such a heavy post, It's just to freaking hard to say it out loud. Thanks for listening.
An Irish Blessing
(I couldn't decide on which to share, so I am posting both)
Don’t grieve for me, for now I’m free!
I follow the plan God laid for me.
I saw His face, I heard His call,
I took His hand and left it all...
I could not stay another day,
To love, to laugh, to work or play;
Tasks left undone must stay that way.
And if my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss...
Ah yes, these things I, too, shall miss.
My life’s been full, I’ve savoured much:
Good times, good friends, a loved-one’s touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief—
Don’t shorten yours with undue grief.
Be not burdened with tears of sorrow,
Enjoy the sunshine of the morrow.
God looked around His garden And found an empty place. He then looked down upon the earth And saw your tired face. He put his arms around you And lifted you to rest. God’s garden must be beautiful He always takes the best. He saw the road was getting rough And the hills were hard to climb, So He closed your weary eyelids And whispered "Peace be thine". It broke our hearts to lose you But you didn’t go alone, For part of us went with you The day God called you home.
R.I.P James, you will be missed!!!